Everything's Changing, Nothing Stays the Same

Eveything seems to be changing all of a sudden, and I've had to accept it. The dynamics of my family are changing. When relatives die there is a bit of restructuring. For example, my uncle Joaquim passed away recently and my aunt Noemiah was left alone. She moved in with her son and left her family farm. When ever we visited Portugal, their farm was our mainstay. It was our base. All of our nearby relatives would congregate there to see us. Now that's gone. We also visited family in the Dominican Republic. But now they've all moved to New York to Washington Heights. So trips to that Caribbean island make no sense now since we've got no one to visit. And up north in Canada, my favorite uncle John has cancer. He just underwent major surgery and no one's sure how much time he's got left. If he passes away, my aunt would move down here with us. Both my aunt and my mother are twins and equally psychotic in their own ways. But together they are explosive. If my aunt moves down here, I move out!
Well, I should move out anyways. My parents both drive me up the wall insane! Throw my crazy aunt into the mix and I would wind up in an asylum! And I'm almost 25 and I've got no independence of my own. So plans are underway to move out. I'll have to move near work, which is a very difficult thing to do. The closer you live to the city, the more expensive it is. And I need to move close enough to merit the actual move. I can't live with a roommate either. I'm scared I'll grow dependant on them. I really need to be able to live by myself, on my own with only myself to lean on. At least for a little while, so I can grow up! The gamble in all of this is that, my job's not one that I'm absolutely sure I'll keep for a long time. The company could restructure (there is that word again) with all it's growth and decide that they can split my job into two positions, with me not being in either one. Then there is school, which is becoming a major regret of mine recently. This was the only time I could start, but it's also come at the most inconvenient time ever. I wish I could have put it off for one more year, but unfortunately the school does not accept deferment for that program. So I had to at least start. And now I'm contemplating a leave of abscence for one semester, to give me time to put my life in order.
Ok, so I just spilled my guts. So be nice and pray for me as I'll be expecting some very difficult months ahead.