Moment of Despair

Halloween is evil! Pure and unadulterated evil! With so much Halloween candy going around, basically being passed on an imaginary conveyor belt right beneath my nose so I can't escape it, I was led into temptation and I fell! Fortunately not very hard, but I still fell. I had a revolting coffee this morning, which spiked up my insulin requiring sugar to keep a balance. I could have eaten that banana I had on my desk, but no. I was in the throws of heady, psychedlic low-sugar trip and my hand went right for the Mystery Flavor Airhead. I haven't had an Airhead in years!!! (I used to do other people's homework and received big bars of the stuff as payment. Shameful I know!). But the sugary Airhead wasn't enough! I had to go for that snack size Butterfinger Crisp as well! I ate half before complete and utter embarassment and and overwhelming feeling of failure passed over me. ::sigh:: You know, I didn't even enjoy it. I'm so past the point of enjoying sugar, that it's only societal pressure and the obligatory caffeine induced insulin high that make me want to eat sugar. Otherwise, I don't even miss it! I think this relapse is also part of all the stress that I'm enduring. Anyways, that my rant. I'm sure you'll hear from me again once the other commercial holidays pop around the corner, luring me into another sugar-craving frenzy!